I find it hard to express my thanks to each of you, there just are not words to truly express my deep gratitude for the overwhelming outpouring of love you have shared with me. Each comment, email, card, plant, flowers, and donations made in Gooses memory to St. Anne's Homeless Shelter has meant so much and touched me deeply.
I miss him so much, but your outpouring of love for him has and is helping me heal. There are days that I feel so lost but all I have to do is breathe deeply and look at all the cards I have received, smell the fragrance of the flowers and touch the sticks many of you have sent him over the years and my heart smiles. A friend shared this saying with me from Winne the Poo: "How lucky I am to have something that makes saying good-bye so hard". It's true, I was so lucky and beyond blessed to have shared my life with Goose and for him to share his life with me. He will forever be my song.
I still feel him with me and I will share with you what happened the other night. As some of you know Goose was very in tune with me. Without training he would know when I was slipping in to a coma like state. Sometimes he would warn me well in advance. Sometimes when I would not respond to his warnings he would do whatever he could to get my attention or to wake me up. Including barking, pulling at my hand, put his paws on my chest and push up and down. He would do anything to get me to respond. Several nights ago when Bert was staying over my house I was trying to sleep. I remember dreaming. I recall seeing Goose, romping, saving sticks, smiling at me. Then he stopped and came real close to me with that concerned look on his face. It was then I felt a thump on my chest. I sort of came to. The thump on my chest was Bert dropping his ball on me. Then I realized that my levels were dangerously low, 41 when normal range is 80 to 120. I was able to drag my self to the kitchen and take some meds and soon my levels returned to normal. While I know some may find it silly, but I really felt that Goose was still looking out for me and maybe through my dream and his ball crazed buddy, Bert , Goose helped me that night.
Thank you again to each of you. I am not sure what the future holds as far as Gooses blog, but I do know that I will continue to cruise through Blogville to see what you all are up to.Blessings,